My Holy month

its a time in which starving a bit is followed by daily feasts. Night of prayers turn into midnight outings and sheesha becomes the night’s smell. Once boring Arabic TV channels are now very controversial. Once crazy traffic and jammed roads from five to eight now clear roads with sonic speeding cars at 6:10. Long working days now are short workless days. Social awareness increases dramatically; time spent not sleeping is spent with family and friends.

Less Music played, more Quran read. Charity is all around, more sad stories told. Masjeeds are filled in all 5 prayers and more at esha. People gather to help each other. Less yelling and fights during the day. More pleasant thoughts and acts.

We all do extra good during this month, but for those who do only good in this month is it right? What if u pray the taraweeh every night of Ramadan, then all year long you forget about the 5 daily prayers. Is a little good better than no good at all? Or do u need to be constant in your goodness? Or at least try to keep it up.

Tips for a pleasant month ‘which I learned the hard way mostly’

- Don’t have salt and vinegar chips for sohoor
- Eat in stages and not all at once
- Have legeemaat once a week
- Don’t stay out late on week night
- Don’t drive on the left lane at 6:20pm
- Read Quran after prayers
- Freej is lame so stop wasting ur time
- Leave work later and never at 2:00 or 3:00pm

The Wise one says
‘we fast then eat, and eat some more’

is One smart?

Not matter how educated and knowledgeable one is there is more he doesn’t know. Being smart and intelligent is debatable, one can be called smart when in fact he is clueless then again he might be called stupid when he has more knowledge than anyone in the room.

One doesn’t need to be smart in one thing or in one way. One can be intelligent in different aspects. Once I thought One should excel in one thing and know a little about the rest. Now I think one should know plenty about everything and if he gets lucky he’ll excel in one thing.

Most of the time one is not judged by the amount of knowledge one has but by the way he presents.

who to say One is smart or not.

the wise one says
'the more you learn the more you find your self confused'

The traveler

Long time ago a man born into a poor family lived in an unnamed village on the other side of the sea, took upon him to live a better life than that of his father. Barely ten years old he was sent with his older brother across the sea to seek a better life, in a new city he found shelter with unfamiliar darker faces.

As he grew up he found a job of fetching things and singing on ship; that sailed for months beyond the sea he have known. He sang with his young tender voice while his brother dove to unknown depths searching for white circles hidden in closed hard purple shells.

After few months out on the rough sea they reach the land, where they piled on goods to sell at their homeland. As they set back to the mainland their ship is filled with a new feeling. Their sails caught more wind and once the air was filled with fish and salts smells its now with spices and perfumes all giving them the sense of fulfillment.

Later on the sea lost it lure and the pearls was a hard sell commodity thou still precious. After the rough sea left it impression and the distant lands changed him into a man he was ready to get married.

In this new city he called home he found a young girl who became his wife and gave him a dozen of children. But first he had to work to provide for his new family so he left his new city and crossed the land to another new city were oil was found and people had better jobs. After few years he came back to marry his wife and take her of to a 3rd city were it promised a better life for future generations. There he rose up his children in pro-education community boys and girls alike. Then by the time his kids grew up, the first city have become a business bay so he moved his family there for his kids to grow in a flourishing space where they can grow and have a life better than that of their father.

A now 60 years passed, he retired from working in chemical plant and started to enjoy his life by still traveling on, not for a better life but for a simpler enjoyable one.

The wise one says
live the life you want and not the one you have’

Summer do i feel?

I recently just fallen into my usually summer mode, Up all night and sleeping all day; avoiding the sun on all circumstances. A month of summer just flied by, I don’t think I’ll ever have my summer vacation feeling back 3 moths of total blank schedules and just doing whatever whenever. This might be the only week I’ll ever have the chance to feel the same way I felt every summer since KG1.

Now summers are about summer courses, how much reading I can do before it and how much packing I have before I travel, then there is the traveling bit, no more trips to relax, nowadays I need to work double. It’s about how much I can learn in few months, and playing catch up with everything. Summer is getting hectic!

Thus I’ll enjoy my Week to the fullest, my phone will be off. I’ll have this week for my self! As it might very well be my last week to relax and enjoy my alone time. So far I’ve been baking and playing with kids, so very joyful, its time to change pace.

So recently I’ve found the videos website!! A gift from Heavn ‘God bless reemo’. I’ve been watching Judy Abbott ‘Daddy long leg’, that was one of my favorites cartoon as a kid, it was dubbed in Arabic back then. Now it’s in Japanese with subtitles, and yap now its anime not cartoon.

What else I just found this singer or group. Its amazing, so far all the songs are lovely!, they are called secondhand serenade! AWESOME

The sun is up now, so I suppose it’s time to sleep.

The wise Judy said
‘the snow falls equal on everything without prejudice’

In her Memory

‘Prince William and Prince Harry will mark the 10th anniversary of their mother's death with an event to celebrate her life.’

How sweet of them, it just makes me look at what I’ve done to honor my mother’s life. 2 days ago marked the 8th anniversary of her death. It just passed by, just like that, nothing happened nothing at all.

It might be good as that day just marks the end, and we should be remembering her life. So we shouldn’t mark that day in our calendar, but rather remember all the 30 and some years before. I’m not sure I’d ever be able to do something so grand to honor my mother’s life.

Maybe one day I’ll be rich enough to build up a school for children in Nepal, and Mosque in Pakistan, and start up a cancer research center in my country in her name. Things that will show other people how even while she passed away some time ago she still leaves an impression in everyone life. Or maybe I’ll have something of her in me to pass on to others.

This isn’t meant to by sympathy attractor post, nor is it depressing. It just away to remind my self of what once was here, and still is with in us.

The wise one says
‘ Allah yer7mha wa ey’3med roo7a il jana’

Living a Cartoons Life

Something caught my attention the other day, most of the Cartoons we love and grow up watching the lead characters were either Orphans or had a father only, yet they were always happy and made us happy too. If we adopt their way of living I bet everyone will be happy, they were poor at some times they faced crisis but at the end it was all so happy.

My favorites were Pollyanna, she had to live with a miserable Aunt and still she was always optimistic and happy! She saw the bright side of every situation. Then there is Jodi Abbott another orphan that get sponsored by the long shadow, this goes to show if you keep a positive attitude you will attract positive effects into your life. Then there was Heidi another orphan who had lo

Then there is the Opening song of me & my brother ‘ana wa a5i’, thou I just have seen the opening I find this song a great way to lead my life, As it says “we won’t let pain to stop us, thou she is a memory that we will never be forgotten’, everyone I met have luved this song. It’s amazing!

The wise one says
‘Paint your life in colors, and forget the shadowing’

MY World!

In a world neither yours nor mine we are rather very possessive, like a wild cat we mark our territory and go berserk on the first person that steps into our marked space. Although we live on a land that might be identified by different names and sliced into different places we still on ONE planet. We share the same air and breath the same diminishing oxygen; we worry about Carbon dioxide and less fresh water. Then again we all have marked out our land and gave it imaginary boundaries only visible on maps.

We should start seeing our time here as it is temporary shortly ending. With that truth in front of us we start planning our legacy making what once we took as our own to stay with in our bloodlines how far they may stretch. We share this time and space we live in with other fellow human beings that are very much entitled to the same ownership we seem to possess.

Then again no matter what religion preaches of equality or law states, we are very much not. Never mind how much tolerance we reach our civilization we will always find ways to isolate people and distinguish them into classes that be by race or occupation or even income. No matter what we overcome we always have more to achieve and for one to prosper another needs to lose.

We all say we want to be treated as equals, but equals to what? A Man? A race? Or nationality? I think we need to start looking at our selves and the way we conceive the world and change it, and then the world will view us the way we want it too.

We need to understand the place we live in, and understand the people around us before we ask anyone to understand us.


The Wise man said
"be the change you wnat to see"

Tomorrow! Tomorrow!!

Tomorrow is my final and last exam! I’m not graduating yet I feel as I’m very much done! I’m so ready to move onto my next big project ‘whatever that might be’.

I’ve got a marketing test tomorrow yet I’m very excited I can’t sleep! It’s not like something special happening tomorrow, but it’s the time of new possibilities. This might be very well the first summer I really am excited about. I wanna do so many things most ‘which I’ll never get around to’.

So I’ll just list them down for fun, and see which will be ticked by the end of summer ‘inshalla’

This summer Noaf plans to do the following: ‘inshalla’

- Volunteer at some center in the city.
- Travel to Austria.
- Lose weight
- Start exercising
- Learn French
- Set up a cupcake website
- Get involved in writing material for a youth website
- Work on her tan
- Learn to apply makeup
- Learn to blow dry her hair
- Learn more on photo editing
- Work on her portfolio
- Be more active

So that what I hope to get to do this summer, with some will power and determination and in God’s speed, it will all be done inshalla!


The Wise one says
'2 Dhs for ever 2 lbs??'

Clueless happiness

Since ever I had a weak memory, I always forget people, situations and places. It can be a curse in a way, all the time I need to be reminded by something happened or of some place or someone. Then it can be a blessing you forget the pain you felt once and the misery you lived, and so u smile on.

Sadly when you get a bunch of awful memories, you try your best to forget them but you end up forgetting everything except those moments you desperately want to erase. Then suddenly you are erasing a person all together! You try desperately to recall some moments, that you start inventing some of your own, then the thin line between your imagination and vague memories blur and it all mixes up. Then in truth you can’t anymore trust your memory. So now you got nothing bad thing you wish you can erase. And you relay on someone’s else accounts of events you’ve lived.

One day you stop trying to remember, blocking it all out, and suddenly you forget it all! There is nothing there, and you are in a clueless happiness.

then a tiny winy memory sneaks in, and you question this happiness you live.

Well let lost memories be lost, they won’t change the present nor the future, only mess you up and get you back to a place you’ve escaped long ago.

So I believe I’m blessed to be extremely forgetful. It keeps me smiling!

Live

This song have become very Dear to my heart.

We need to live our life and stop wishing we have more or less to live.

How do u know its summer?

Today I noticed it’s Summer already!.. Hurricane, thunderstorms are forecasted for tomorrow I hope that means some rain!

So how do u know its summer?

- You swap your feather/cotton blanket for regular single sheet.
- You take a cold shower, for it turns to be just very steamy instead.
- You pull you hair up, and start thinking of cutting it short.
- You turn your car AC, and still it’s a greenhouse, u can now grow plants in you back seat.
- You start wearing summer dresses, anything with no sleeves and above the knee.
- You always carry an extra shirt, to change in.
- You start finishing your water bottle even before getting to class.
- You don’t step a foot at ‘uptown Madriff’.
- You sleep during the day, and wake up feeling all sticky.
- Every AC is on, with no real effect.
- You take another shower, hoping the water is cold, and no luck.
- You start saying you’ll go tan, you’ll walk outdoor more, then it’s a week and u haven’t stepped outside!
- You don’t study anymore, though you got exams ahead.

So ya it’s summer alright!! It’s sooooooooooo HOT!!!!!!

Why do we like summer !

The wise one ‘left to a cooler place’

are you happy?

I think that we chase happiness all the time and worry about never obtaining it. While in fact we can just rest and be happy. Happiness isn’t an attainable object it’s a state of mind and soul. If your happy you don’t need money or a significant over ‘thou sure they will make life better and maybe happier’.

Then again we always express our sadness and grief to the fullest, but when we are happy we hide it worried it will get stolen. I think we should share both equally if not give happiness more time and space.

I really do find myself happy doing simple things, playing with kids, baking, going to the beach, typing, sleeping. If we allow our selves to feel good we will be happy all the time, even on exam week.

I’m happy today, knowing that I can feel the way I do with no obligations to others. I don’t have to worry about tomorrow, because it will come either ways. I feel content with life I have, I have great friends and family, I live in a lovely city. I don’t need more money, nor a fancy house and car. There might never be mister right, I might never be the next big name, I might not live to see tomorrow. But now at this moment I can say I’m thankful for all that I have, and I’m grateful to be born at this time in this place and with my religion.

This post is for all the times I seemed depressed or unhappy through my previous posts. Happiness to me is easily expressed and I live it, I might write in a darker mood only because I think sadness should be written down and not expressed in your actual life, it will taint your life.

Lets be happy, oh yap this all started because a couple of people said a nice thing to me. They reminded me that we should try and share our happy moments.

The wise one says
‘Thank you God for all of your blessings’

God Bless the White van

I’ve always felt that somehow in some way things just work out on their own,. Some say I’m just lazy to work out anything by myself, and others think I get things through some psychic power. I just think if I really wish very hard then it just happens.

So the other day I was in the next city ‘sharja’ , to get to the place I wanted to get to, I messed up few times that I ended up going up and done the road 3 times. So that was in day light and all looking safe, and the person I’ve been calling to ask for directions still didn’t get pissed off yet.

On the way back to my city, I seriously messed up and got totally lost, I didn’t want to call anyone really. I ended up in some deserted dark place, I contemplated rolling down the window and ask any way for directions, but I got an insane idea. I’ll just follow the car in front of me!

A white van was in front of me, so I’m like let me follow it and maybe its just going to my city. So I started following it, for a sec I thought this is so random,, then again I do very random things and as I say things fall into their places.

And Tata I got to my city! Thanks to the White Van

The wise one says
‘believe in your self and trust your intuition’

who has the control?

Do I have control over my life, or is this control I yield is all make belief. Have I lied to myself enough to make it the truth. How many times do you repeat a lie until it becomes reality?

Are we ever free, all of our actions are shaped because of our relationships, and when we think we are on our own, desire and what society made appealing are the force behind us. Do we ever motivate our selves? Can we live and motivate ourselves.

Do we play our roles, or cast them?

There is this thought I’ve always ponder, and I’m sure everyone have thought about it once or more.

In my culture and religion, we are told there is destiny and maybe things are pre-written for us. When you can’t picture your future, you’d be told not to worry about it and leave it for destiny to sort it out. Then at ever job interview they ask you where do you see your self in the future 5 years or even 10.

Then if our densities are pre-written, are we just pawns moving in our set courses. Then we are told you go either told hell or heaven based on our earthly doings. Then we are the writer of our lives, and then destiny isn’t written. We achieve as much as we desire and work for so there isn’t anything written for us. Is life not a rehearsal or a play that we will be judged upon and be awarded heaven or hell accordingly?

Does this say that destiny is our own fabrication and answer; for when we got no vision or answer about our futures. After all we can’t tell the future.

The wise one says
‘Plays mimic life’

Driving in My City

People in my city loose their manner at the moment they sit behind the stirring wheel. It’s like the streets are a jungle and there are two roles to play either a deer or a lion. It’s not a jungle out there are lined lanes white to show you where you stand yellow to show where you might not, I don’t suppose the city spend money on painting the streets because it’s art.

I believe in a city who have the best paved roads and new intricate tunnels and bridges drivers need to be more civilized. Why don’t we give space for car to take the turn, it’s like when you see a car signaling in your way you take upon your self to make it as difficult as possible for them to changes lanes, which only results in making the poor driver miss the turn or way they had to take.

Then honking at car when the lights just turned green. If the first car didn’t move after 10 secs then you got all the right to honk at them. People should count to 10 then get frustrated with other drivers.

For a while I thought I’d carry some roses with me so every time some driver give me way or treats me well I’d give it to them show good will. then I can’t play catch up and try giving them the rose so I’ve let it drop.

If you get involved in a car accident and it wasn’t your fault don’t start yelling at the other driver and don’t bite you’re their head off. The next time you might cause it and surely in that moment your already upset and you don’t want someone getting angry with you.

I believe that if you treat others well then other will treat you well. It’s annoying when someone won’t give way because of a drivers nationality “that is beyond being racist” and sadly a lot of our kind are like that! Then some people feel entitled to the road they would run over anyone who doesn’t get out of their way and other will drive slower than a snail.

I’ve been in several accidents nothing serious and all were with pleasant people ‘thank God’, I never honk at anyone I find it to be very rude. My friends keep saying that I’m being silly. I think it’s already noise in the streets why add more. I always give other car a chance to cross and change lanes.

I believe if you put positive energy out you get some in too. I also believe in Karma, and in the concept of treating your fellow human the way you wish to be treated.


The wise one says
‘Don’t drive if you can walk’

it's all in our minds

All the things we desire and want are attainable. I recently watch ‘The Secret’ it’s a wonderful film, it validated a lot for me. For the longest time I thought that I’m different than other people. I used to tell my friends that I don’t stress about things because if I only wished for them to happen then they will. When faced by a problem I don’t stress I always say things will always fall in their place. i’ve always told my friends if you just sleep and don’t stress about it; it will work out on its own. Some would say I’m avoiding the problems and I don’t confront them, so far everything worked out so well.

I think it’s all about positive thinking if you can visualize it, it will materialize. I don’t know about the theory of thought attracting things, but I know this much if I thought of something bad and visualized it most likely to happens, and so with positive thoughts.

It’s not something you can expect to work as soon as you think your thought, you have to think positively and try to see the positives in your life.

I used to get sick very often, and I used to complain about it a lot! Until one friend told me you only get sick because you think you are and you obsess about it. Since then whenever I got a cold I’d think I’m not sick and it’s just a flu, due to that way of thinking I’m now always feeling healthy and whatever cold I get would end quickly.

Then there is the thing with feelings according to ‘the secret’ there are two emotions bad or good. What we call sadness, grief, depression and so on are only variations of the same feelings. The first time I felt grief it took me years to get over it, until I realized if I didn’t take control of my feelings then they’ll ruin my life. I concluded I’ll feel sadness but I’ll end it when I choose and never let it drag on. Recently I was bummed about turning 21 and before few days of my birthday I was depressed, and all of my friend were worried and tried to cheer me up, I told them by new year which is just 3 days after I turned 21 I’ll be over it. I gave my self the space and time to feel what I needed to feel, and by new-year I ended it. You might think that isn’t possible to turn on and off an emotion. If you think its possible then it is, to get back to feeling good, I got out of my room I spent more time with people I haven’t seen in a long while and the most important thing is that I changed my music play-list. All you need to change you mood is to starting changing physical things you have control off and then it will change also.

Whatever it is you want you can achieve if only you start thinking that you can and preferably act on it in a positive way.

The wise one says
‘ destiny is but the ending of the story we wrote’

Can you Jog?

Recently I’ve realized I can’t jog, I either walk fast or run jogging is quite impossible. So here is what I thought this might very well reflect moderation, I mean if you can control your pace not to be slow or fast then it might mean that you are moderate person.

So I think it takes a great deal of strength and skill to be able to control yourself. It’s funny how simple things can reveal a lot.

Life is wonderful some might run all the way through it and in their busy state pass by most of it beauty. They just need to remember to slow down and pause to enjoy it every once in a while.

Then there are those who stroll all the way, no worries in the world as if everyday is another afternoon stroll in the park. Those at the end of their lives find that they’ve lived in vain they didn’t produce anything and they’ve wasted it all.

Then come those who can jog, they got it right. Those are the ones who have balanced their lives quite well. They are productive individuals of the society and still they do enjoy their days.

The wise one says
“Balance out the evil by the good”

Shuffle & answer

so the concept here is to put ur music on shuffle and put the song name as an answer then fwd and answer ... some answers are funny



HOW DO YOU FEEL TODAY?
Wonderful – Ja rule & Ashanti
‘indeed’

WHAT'S YOUR OUTLOOK ON LIFE?
I miss you when your gone- cranberries
‘hmmm, no clue’

WHAT DOES YOUR FAMILY THINK OF YOU?
True – Spandau Ballet
‘no comment’

WHAT DO YOUR FRIENDS THINK OF YOU?
Dark Blue - Jacks Mannnequin
‘I hope not’


WHAT DO STRANGERS THINK OF YOU?
I me you I’m yours – Jim Noir
‘confusing’

HOW IS YOUR LOVE LIFE?
If you were mine – Marcos Hernandez
‘uhh how sad’

HOW WILL YOUR LOVE LIFE BE IN THE FUTURE?
Miss you – Jem
‘uhhh…even worse’

WILL YOU GET MARRIED?
Come clean – hilary duff

WILL YOU HAVE KIDS?
Like glue – sean Paul

ARE YOU GOOD AT SCHOOL?
New world – Toby Mac
!!!

Will You Be Successful in Life?
I’m shakin’- Rooney
‘uhmmm… ‘

WHAT SONG SHOULD THEY PLAY ON YOUR BIRTHDAY?

Maybe I’m Amazed – Jem
‘oh ya I do amaze’

WHAT SONG SHOULD THEY PLAY AT YOUR FUNERAL?
I will Believe – Nichole Nordeman
‘suitable I might say’

THE SOUNDTRACK OF YOUR LIFE:
Breathe – Anna Nalick
‘maybe’

YOU AND YOUR BEST FRIEND ARE:
Glorious day – embrace

HAPPY TIMES:
I believe I can fly – R Kelly
‘this is happy’

SAD TIMES:
Hello sunshine – super furry animals
‘ hmmm sad?’

EVERY DAY:
The Ghost of a good thing – dashboard of confessional

FOR TOMORROW:
Dear mama- Tupac
‘uh?’

FOR YOU:
Boston- Augustana
‘sweet’

WHAT DOES NEXT YEAR HAVE IN STORE FOR ME?
More than anyone – Gavin Degraw
‘nice’

WHAT DO I SAY WHEN LIFE GETS TOO HARD?
Breathing – lifehouse


WHAT SONG WILL I DANCE TO AT MY WEDDING?
Good times – tommy lee

YOUR FAVOURITE SAYING?
With you I’m born again- Mariah carey & John legend
‘and you is?’

HOW WILL I DIE?
Hands open- snow patrol
!!! digging my own grave!!!!

THE SONG THAT YOU'LL PUT AS YOUR SUBJECT?
Qwerty – linkin park


the wise one says
'let music be your noise'