Who are we

There are a few who are satisfied that we call unambitious. There are few that aren't shaken by peer opinions and we call them nonchalant. There are those who see the grey shades and we call them of depth and tolerance, making those of black and white naive and idealist. There are those who are eccentric as they do not merge with the community norms. There are those and these types, and we mange a way to categorize them all even those who do not fit a category, we shall make them one. We have to rationalize everything, we have to label it, leaving people to exist with no judgment is out of our capabilities. 

The wise one says
'let your name be your only label’

my community

It is sad but it is true. I live in a community the dwells on the wrongs and relish in others misery. There is no more dialogue of growth, all that matters is the other. I sat amongst people who did not actually talk to each other back talked about the people around them. I might not relish in gossip, but i can endure it, yet i cant believe a whole dinner passed without one useful conversation. i learned nothing about the people i sat with but i learned plenty about their judgements of people. I hate this community living, i do hate these conversations.

To Be almost Vegeterian

I'm a person of purpose, everything i do have a reason despite it seeming whimsical and me giving a nonchalant attitude. The truth is i have a million reasons.

For instance my decision to be almost vegetarian is mainly to do with health & eating habits. I have the worst habits ever, i'm very picky. Every time we go out i have to ask for so much of the dish to be removed. I do not have a favorite cuisine, my fav food is icecream. I like bland food, or extremely sour & salty. I can't have to much herbs or spices at all. i don't eat red meat, and another lean meat have to be grilled. I might have only eaten 6-10 type of vegetables. Other than that i love fruits!!!
There have been weeks where i lived on candy only or chips.

i want to break this habit, as its not helping my energy levels at all i have very low stamina. Last year i was vegetarian for a month i heard a speaker talking about picking up new things for 30 days its good way to develop a habit. I felt lighter with more energy and above all the month i didnt get sick!.

The only thing i missed was fish, and that's why i'm having open friday, so i can eat meat then. I'm not giving up much because most meats i do not eat. i will expand my vegetables. I will still have eggs and milk.

I believe that we consume to much fish, some type are already over fished & some are always exported considering we have no rivers in the region. Chicken is dosed with growth hormones which isn't ideal to say the least.

I will not assume a higher morality role in all of this, all i want is to is to eat more vegetable & loose weight in the process & eat cooked food rather than bought. Being vegetarian will limit my quick bites, it will make me plan my meals, and by any luck in 2 months time it will become a habit & automated.

Nature

I was on a flight, the plane tipped and i felt i was in the sky, i was flying thru the sky the stars looked bigger than i ever seen, and they weren't up they were all around us. All i could think of 'is that truly the sky are these really stars', they looked so close for the picking they shinned so brightly. I felt so alive yet so insignificant in the beauty of this sky.

I was on a hike, at the very end of the trail there was a a skinny tree coiled over this strong tree trunk it was pale it looked dead. It felt like a broken women who had loved this man and held to him with dear life. She looked like she wasted her life waiting for him to notice her but he didn't ever flinch, and she died just there and still he wasn't moved. It made me sad to think that anyone would spend a life time in misery in search of happiness.

I might a times see more than there is, I might reflect beyond the surface, i might be just eccentric.

The wise one says
'the one that sees more than there is, is a searching soul'

To Pray

In the moment of despair in a state of helplessness we all pray, those of religion and those of nothing... We choose to believe that prayers are our last hope. It may bring no relief it may result in no cure, but it provides a hope you once lost. I had prayed for a cure, then i had prayed for time, i prayed for relief and i had prayed of for an end to the suffering. Suddenly I'm praying for what i started with wishing away.

I can choose that either there is no one to hear those prayers, or I could believe my prayer were not answered. I can believe anything I want to anything that brings solace. The truth to the matter what we had little control on we will end up with having no control on at the end. What you can't change with action your thought will have less impact on them.

I rather pray in thanks for my life, for all the blessings, and when despair i let it be, for i believe what is written remains and we fall in our paths as we do.

the wise one says
 'there is no stronger bond than certainty'

as we stand

We may stand alone we might stand together. In the distance one, two or many aren't visible all that matters is that someone out there still stands. Life is for the living, and what once was, now lies under the sand as it holds very little value other than the ripple in the ground. Life goes on with or without your. Fighting to live isn’t the point, fighting to be significant to matter to be more than a ripple in the world is what your strive for. We might matter in our context of living. We must fight the great fight to live on. Surrender is not an option glory or death is our end. Stand and fight of the demons of defeat, hold on and live on….

the wise one says 'the glorious sea waves always crashes into speckles of sand solider'

Between the colored lines, the grey shadows emerge
In the silence of night, the forgotten truth creeps out

for a moment, we had lost count
it is as many as it ever was

yet what we lost is greater
than what we ever had

the absurdity of I

We all exist, we all aspire to be significant, some end up being magnificent. I put no claim on any notion of grandeur, I am merely me. In this over populated world, there isn't much left to discover and invent, there is so much love and hate all around. There are many families as much there are orphans,  there are opinions, belief and even science. The world exited before me and will continue after I perish. Will I matter in broad scheme of life?  

The illusions we create and the façade we construct are the great feats we achieve in evolving. We create a persona that subscribes to ideologies we in fact are distanced from. How is it that we amplify our significance with unfathomable rhetoric, and proceed through our lives, as this is our natural condition, not a well-tuned and fabricated existence? We work hard to polish our brass shells of humanity, hoping that if we keep at it then brass will turn into silver.

How tiresome is the pursuit of the living, seeking success, pursuing happiness. How conceited is our chase, for the fact remains we might be predestined, defeated claims one might say. We scribe our stories and we dictate our density for they are only outcomes of our actions and person.

Utter confusion, a complexity of competing ideas and principles, stirs an on going debate that never settle without exhaustion. Am I who I am? Or am I what I am? AM I a product of my circumstances or despite them?

the wise one said
'To question your purpose is one thing, to question your existence is whole different mess'

The story

It may not be true, it may not bring light, and it might explain nothing, despite it all it’s a story and it will be told. There is much more than reality, there is existence between the lines the governor our lives. With no claim of wisdom nor belief of a greater notion, I believe in this story I call my life.

I realize I’m not magnificent; all one can be is significant enough to leave a memory of their existence in this long rendition of life. As individuals we all believe in our own stardom in life, whilst all we are in fact is a reincarnation of concepts and ideas that survives a humans life span to become part of humanity as a whole.

We are an extension of a race, culture, religion, nationality and evolution. As we all are a variation of different principles, we all fall back to the same core of existence. I tend to wonder why one subscribes to one ideology and forsakes all other. We usually follow other’s ideas only those of us with great luck are able to create their own and affect others with them.

My legacy might not be of any greatness, it might be of no significance to the human race, but in whatever circle I exist in I hope I leave a ripple effect of goodness.

Some dream Big, some dream small, some dream for them selves, and some dream for all. In a life of dreams and pursuits, i'm grand and i'm simplistic in mine. I want to have a grand impact with small influences. TEA is my new passion, thou i'm still learning but i believe i can use it to change the world! the interconnection of tea give us endless influences! from sustainable resources to fair trade, to economical empowerments, health booster, buildup of social encounters and individualistic indulgences. I think Tea can help communities thrive, it promotes health, economy & social life. For that i think Tea is a product with integrity.

|My dream is to open worldly conscious tea shop, and not those commercial tea nor the luxurious tea houses. Something amazing bring the world together!

SO tea is the way to go!

be your own

We are told many things about our selves, we are viewed many different ways and we are told what we should and should not be, and we strive to oblige. To stand by your views you are considered hard headed, to refuse to conform you are rebellious, how is it that we do not have a say in our lives anymore.

People

In a world were everything is very interdependent, it's very hard to find on independence. we may sovereign a territory but at the end of the day we trade and communicate with other. That it perfectly understandable as no man is an island. What troubles me is when we can't identify out boundaries, where my life is so blurred with others. technology have made time & space irrelevant in our communications. I for one do not care much for 24 hr connection with the world. i like to be able to be not there when i'm not,i would like not to be found when i purposefully am avoiding people. I have many friends and i'm social with people when i the are around but at the same time i like spaces with no one but me, i like the quiet of an empty house. I like to work by my own schedule, not bound by others. I do not understand why do people feel that i owe them my time. if i say i do not want to hang out then simply i do not want that, doesn't mean i like you less or there is something wrong, just means i want to be alone.

Tomorrow came

There were days when we sat an placed or dreams and plans on the dinner plans like setting the plates on the table, We had big dreams i would have been a scientist, you would have been a doctor. We will find cures and it will resolve. We laughed at the elders jokes, we smiled at the promises tomorrow brought. The stories we had and the memories we made were all joyful. i remember being close we wanted nothing more than to live & grow old. No promises were made nothing was desired but tomorrow, and tomorrow came lacking you. i miss you.

the wise One says
"nothing is accomplished with tears'

the life not lived

i think i've slept half of it away, and i do mean that in a literal sense, as a baby i slept every couple of hours, asa teenage i slept 12 hrs a day, as an adult i sleep 10 hrs a day. i wasn't social as a kid now i have polished my social skill, i have friends everywhere or at least people that i talk too, but for every day i spend with people i need half a day away from them. i watch alot of tv, looking back i spend so much time doing nothing really. i think it's time to make every day count! stop planning a future and start living today, everything we do is a preparation for tomorrow which makes us lose today. At times i seem very social, but i don't really like people, or care for relationships, i'm not hypocrite but if i was my self then i'd be a cocoon. today i'm inspired, i'll do stuff i said i would do but never do today is the day!

holding on

this is the ideal age for exploration, a time to fight the good fight, for your ideals, causes and position in this world. yet i feel beaten down even before i had the chance to start. In time of delusions i seek the comfort of the silence and the thud of thunder for i am confused in my search. With a spirit as shallow as the skin that wraps it, for what lies a head seem a mirage. Importance have lost it urge and meaning. for the frustration and pain that the path hold is suffocating, an overwhelming feeling of escaping ones skin is urgent. a tingly feeling of a long gone soul, prickles the insides with helplessness.

not that the future promises changed, nor the current situation has taken a bad turn, all remains quiet the same, but a fragile structure is facing its weaknesses for the first time.

truth of the matter, i have no energy to argue, no strength to care,

the wise one says
'for tonight might seem dark, tomorrow with certainty there shall be sunshine'

The way to my future,

It’s not a clear path nor a chosen path, best described as clearing and forming with each step and tumble. I know that while its forming it seems all tiresome and at times pointless, yet I’m sure when I’ve reach one destination I’ll only remember good times. Few goals I have in mind thou I do not know how I’ll go about them but I’ll set down a plan, I read or heard once, that you have to write down your dream and devise the steps you need to follow to reach your goal. Well for a person who never follows a plan but likes setting up many, I think that it is just good advice. I believe in a planned out randomness and systematic disorganization, and above all working in manner that make no sense to others. For most my writing are gibberish at best, and my actions are very careless, and my speech is rather not thought through.

There is no chaos and no fate for me, for things happens because of me or another, one might not see an instigator of the movement but there is alway one. One doesn’t lose because they did not compete, and one doesn’t win because another did. At best we take our winnings and get out of the game or continue playing until another starts to win. So I suppose until you’ve won one u have no decision to make other than stay in the game

The wiseone says
“risk a little to win many, but never risk all to win many”

Where next

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this is where i have been already, the countries i'd like to visit next are:

- France
- China
- Japan
- Korea
- Italy
- Kenya
- Morocco
- Switzerland
- Australia
- Fiji
- Madagascar
- Russia
- Tunisia
- Jordan

and many more.. those are for today

The Lucky few

Its been said that the world's wealth is in the hand of only 1% of its people, the lucky 1%! How lucky do u need to be in that 1%? It’s been said 2% of all people are genius, I guess you just need a little less luck for that. Yet I envy neither groups, let them have their bliss, I’m content with my dimes and my average intellect.

The lucky ones I envy are those who can pick up and start anywhere with very little, why can’t I do that? The lucky ones that see the world as an endless home, they can make a life for themselves, the truly lucky ones are those who will consider everything as a possibility, ethnicity, culture, race nor religion makes a difference to them. I do not judge people along those lines but I take them in consideration. How wonderful would it be to just make a life for yourself in a new place, every time you need a new start you just pick and relocate, but starting all over again must be the hardest things, I’m always impressed by those who just seem to be able to start from zero at any time, my life is just a string of continuous events which eventually complete a story.

The lucky ones are those who have achieved so much with so little intelligence, with puffery they make it all sound smart, with big words they write articles of no content, but as most people get entangled in their word give it more value. The smarter ones are the ones that use people assumptions for their advantage, with others assuming they are too young, too old, too new, too dump, they get to get by by doing so much less than what the can do and just get by just fine. those i admire as they achieve just as much as any hardworking person.

There are always those lucky enough to better than me, those who have always seen the leaves ‘reference to greys anatomy: about wearing glasses’

The wise one says
‘the lucky ones, are those who have enough mouth to cover their teeth when they smile’

Hopeful wishes and Helpless prayers.

If life was like ‘the island’, how great! Having spare parts is a good guarantee of healthy living to certain extend. Why can’t life be more like a sci-fi movie that’s filled with possibilities and like a fair tale, with happily ever after ending. How sweet it would be.

Cloning why isn’t it legal by now? In no way does mean that scientist are playing God, as God can create we can merely copy and hope God will provide it with the soul to live on. For the longest time I wanted to study it hoping one day I can clone a person, thou its has been my a naïve child dreams, it is so possible. Its bound to happen I hope. Then maybe we can have back those who we have lost due to death. It imposes it’s own ethical and moral questions, and surely it might be opposed by religion. But let a child’s dreams be.

I know there is little we could do but pray for those who are sick, if doctors play their roles, and the medicine is what it should be then with our prayers all shall be well again. I pray that I don’t have to pray the same prayers all over again, I pray that soon I won’t need to pray those prayers. Enshalla it all will be well.

The Wise One say
“When left helpless, there is always one more thing that can be done, PRAY”