it's all in our minds

All the things we desire and want are attainable. I recently watch ‘The Secret’ it’s a wonderful film, it validated a lot for me. For the longest time I thought that I’m different than other people. I used to tell my friends that I don’t stress about things because if I only wished for them to happen then they will. When faced by a problem I don’t stress I always say things will always fall in their place. i’ve always told my friends if you just sleep and don’t stress about it; it will work out on its own. Some would say I’m avoiding the problems and I don’t confront them, so far everything worked out so well.

I think it’s all about positive thinking if you can visualize it, it will materialize. I don’t know about the theory of thought attracting things, but I know this much if I thought of something bad and visualized it most likely to happens, and so with positive thoughts.

It’s not something you can expect to work as soon as you think your thought, you have to think positively and try to see the positives in your life.

I used to get sick very often, and I used to complain about it a lot! Until one friend told me you only get sick because you think you are and you obsess about it. Since then whenever I got a cold I’d think I’m not sick and it’s just a flu, due to that way of thinking I’m now always feeling healthy and whatever cold I get would end quickly.

Then there is the thing with feelings according to ‘the secret’ there are two emotions bad or good. What we call sadness, grief, depression and so on are only variations of the same feelings. The first time I felt grief it took me years to get over it, until I realized if I didn’t take control of my feelings then they’ll ruin my life. I concluded I’ll feel sadness but I’ll end it when I choose and never let it drag on. Recently I was bummed about turning 21 and before few days of my birthday I was depressed, and all of my friend were worried and tried to cheer me up, I told them by new year which is just 3 days after I turned 21 I’ll be over it. I gave my self the space and time to feel what I needed to feel, and by new-year I ended it. You might think that isn’t possible to turn on and off an emotion. If you think its possible then it is, to get back to feeling good, I got out of my room I spent more time with people I haven’t seen in a long while and the most important thing is that I changed my music play-list. All you need to change you mood is to starting changing physical things you have control off and then it will change also.

Whatever it is you want you can achieve if only you start thinking that you can and preferably act on it in a positive way.

The wise one says
‘ destiny is but the ending of the story we wrote’

Can you Jog?

Recently I’ve realized I can’t jog, I either walk fast or run jogging is quite impossible. So here is what I thought this might very well reflect moderation, I mean if you can control your pace not to be slow or fast then it might mean that you are moderate person.

So I think it takes a great deal of strength and skill to be able to control yourself. It’s funny how simple things can reveal a lot.

Life is wonderful some might run all the way through it and in their busy state pass by most of it beauty. They just need to remember to slow down and pause to enjoy it every once in a while.

Then there are those who stroll all the way, no worries in the world as if everyday is another afternoon stroll in the park. Those at the end of their lives find that they’ve lived in vain they didn’t produce anything and they’ve wasted it all.

Then come those who can jog, they got it right. Those are the ones who have balanced their lives quite well. They are productive individuals of the society and still they do enjoy their days.

The wise one says
“Balance out the evil by the good”

Shuffle & answer

so the concept here is to put ur music on shuffle and put the song name as an answer then fwd and answer ... some answers are funny



HOW DO YOU FEEL TODAY?
Wonderful – Ja rule & Ashanti
‘indeed’

WHAT'S YOUR OUTLOOK ON LIFE?
I miss you when your gone- cranberries
‘hmmm, no clue’

WHAT DOES YOUR FAMILY THINK OF YOU?
True – Spandau Ballet
‘no comment’

WHAT DO YOUR FRIENDS THINK OF YOU?
Dark Blue - Jacks Mannnequin
‘I hope not’


WHAT DO STRANGERS THINK OF YOU?
I me you I’m yours – Jim Noir
‘confusing’

HOW IS YOUR LOVE LIFE?
If you were mine – Marcos Hernandez
‘uhh how sad’

HOW WILL YOUR LOVE LIFE BE IN THE FUTURE?
Miss you – Jem
‘uhhh…even worse’

WILL YOU GET MARRIED?
Come clean – hilary duff

WILL YOU HAVE KIDS?
Like glue – sean Paul

ARE YOU GOOD AT SCHOOL?
New world – Toby Mac
!!!

Will You Be Successful in Life?
I’m shakin’- Rooney
‘uhmmm… ‘

WHAT SONG SHOULD THEY PLAY ON YOUR BIRTHDAY?

Maybe I’m Amazed – Jem
‘oh ya I do amaze’

WHAT SONG SHOULD THEY PLAY AT YOUR FUNERAL?
I will Believe – Nichole Nordeman
‘suitable I might say’

THE SOUNDTRACK OF YOUR LIFE:
Breathe – Anna Nalick
‘maybe’

YOU AND YOUR BEST FRIEND ARE:
Glorious day – embrace

HAPPY TIMES:
I believe I can fly – R Kelly
‘this is happy’

SAD TIMES:
Hello sunshine – super furry animals
‘ hmmm sad?’

EVERY DAY:
The Ghost of a good thing – dashboard of confessional

FOR TOMORROW:
Dear mama- Tupac
‘uh?’

FOR YOU:
Boston- Augustana
‘sweet’

WHAT DOES NEXT YEAR HAVE IN STORE FOR ME?
More than anyone – Gavin Degraw
‘nice’

WHAT DO I SAY WHEN LIFE GETS TOO HARD?
Breathing – lifehouse


WHAT SONG WILL I DANCE TO AT MY WEDDING?
Good times – tommy lee

YOUR FAVOURITE SAYING?
With you I’m born again- Mariah carey & John legend
‘and you is?’

HOW WILL I DIE?
Hands open- snow patrol
!!! digging my own grave!!!!

THE SONG THAT YOU'LL PUT AS YOUR SUBJECT?
Qwerty – linkin park


the wise one says
'let music be your noise'

Cup-caking

Recently I’ve found joy in Cup-caking, I never thought that I’d be good at the kitchen but after seeing the light as pointed by noora&Budoor I see the joy in baking. So I decided to bakes some for my cousin it goes without saying I burned the first batch!.. it all went completely black! So I tried the next batch this time I stayed glued to the oven window for 15 minutes watching the cupcakes slowly raise! Then I iced them and they looked all so lovely. I get them to my cousin’s house and they all loved it!

After all there is hope for me in the kitchen! i’ll try making cookies next time. Simple things do bring great joy. I got a new DVD player though still I haven’t watched anything on it I’m so happy knowing I can watch whatever I want whenever I want.
This pace of life suits me very well, now I can sleep as late as I want I can go out as much as I want, and at last I can feel bored!

Though now I don’t see my friends as much starting to be more family loyal. I like the time alone watching TV & reading.

We should all have a period in the year were we just relax doing our usual routine but in a slower pace. It’s healthy to change your pace every while and then. Last couple of months was about running from one thing to another.

So I do hope everyone get their Slow period and try to relax, at the pace most are going by people will get heart at attacks while they are still in their twenties!


the Wise one says
"Don't swim against the flow"

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the wise one says
"and who said flying is only for the birds?"

Only few have it

Recently I’ve come to realize with the help of friends that we seem to attract the worst genes from either side of the parents. If your mom side are chubby people you won’t get the skinny genes from your dad side, naaah you’ll surely be more to the fat side. If your mom side had soft thick black hair, you get stuck with your dad frizzy hair genes.

Some things can be helped and modified, you always can try out hair treatments and get on a diet to lose or keep off the extra kilos. I got the worst trait ever in our gene pool ‘hand and voice tremor’ AKA Familial tremor. There is worst things to inherit but this does hold up in the top 10 worst genes in the family pool.

It’s all in the genes! Despite that its the way we live that dictates our strengths and weakness. For instant though the tremor is not really curable, I can control it. If I’m not tired I won’t shakes as much, if I sleep long hours the tremor will be less, if I don’t get excited scared or stressed my voice will hold up just fine. If I don’t eat a lot and fix up my diet and work out more I won’t be fat.

At the end it depend on how much we want to take control. Everything is changeable and doable if we only exert the effort.

The wise one says
“You don’t need to be French or Japanese to be slim”

Red Tape

i patched up OG!..
and who doubted that i'll tape her in shape !

i'm glad to say she is holding up well today.. tomorrow is the real endurance test...

the wise one says
"it only takes faith for things to stick together"

Sorry OG

Poor Orangeeta Garambeta she has been through a lot through in her first year. I haven’t been the best caretaker I’ve dragged her through mud and along the tar. She has endured so much of my absent mind misshapes, she have taken so much beating and crashes. OG is still in her first year but poor thing got wrinkles of a 30 year old. D-trap hasn’t seen so much torture from me, though she deserved it. DT is well older than OG and even than me yet she is in good shape for her age. Today we needed DT’s help but the old hag ran out of battery juice ‘perfect timing’ and OG got an open wound yet to be nurses, so far she got some bandages until she sees a professional mender.

So here this is a post to OG sorry luv for all the hurt I caused you, you know that I never meant it. It was an accident one that happens more often than I’d like to acknowledge.

Scars adds mystery of not personality so don’t worry my luv you look beautiful

The wise one says
“it takes an imaginative mind to give objects personalities, and insane one to bring them alive”

Time to change

As the old man of India puts it “You must be the change you wish to see in the world.” he was wise I must say, why do we always find it easy to point the faults of the world and what should be changed. As some one once said ‘Everyone thinks of changing the world, but no one thinks of changing himself.” We should start with our selves, and only when we are truly with out fault do we get the right point out others faults…


As the Arabic saying goes “a cow doesn’t see but its friends tail”… which in sense mean you don’t see your faults but you reflect them on others.

So we need to recognize our own flaws and work on fixing them. Today I acknowledge the fact that I plan and plan and I never follow through. So from now on I’ll do my best to follow through with my plans… firstly I promise to exercise everyday and cut out junk food.

Then here I am I want a better world, not in a beauty queen sense of world peace. I want people to Donate blood, yet I myself don’t and because I complain about it. As the lady says “If you don't like something, change it. If you can't change it, change your attitude. Don't complain.” I’m going to try to donate something else and maybe work for the cause.

It’s up to us, if your not motivated just do it and you’ll be motivated. Don’t over think it and analyze it don’t set up plans don’t promise just get on doing it. A someone says “To change one's life: 1. Start immediately, 2. Do it flamboyantly, 3. No exceptions.”

The wise one says
“ Change your self, and watch the world get better”

the songs

yesterday i decided that i should toughen up and try to bend my wrist for hopes of trying push ups! In attempts to get fit. To my surprise it bent! I was static and contemplating going to a gym the next morning, but the next morning I woke up with a numb finger an a bruised wrist didn’t see that coming, so push ups have to wait a couple of months I guess last time I could bend my wrist to do push ups was when I was 14! And I wasn’t any good at it.

So no much typing will happen so I’ll just paste my song list, some of you will like them. Start downloading




Better than me - Hinder ‘I told my self I won’t miss you, but I remember’

Dream - Priscilla Ahn ‘I was little girl, alone in my world who dreamed of a little home for me’

Swans - Unkle Bob
‘Cause I'm fake at the seams, lost in my dreams’

When I am gone - Sparrow House ‘Sit beside me now and promise me you won cry when I’m gone’

Bitter song,- ‘All I need is a bitter song to make me better, much better’

Nothing left to say - Keane ‘why do you lie, when you wanna die, when you hurt inside’

Hate me today - Blue October ‘I have to block out thoughts of you so I don't lose my head’

Superman - Brown Boy ‘I can be your superman, Just take my hand lets fly away’

Patience - Take it ‘My heart is numb has no feeling so while I’m still healing, just try and have a little patience’

High and low – Greg Laswell ‘And I look high and low for yesterday’

A bad dream – Keane ‘In a better time you could be my friend’

Save me - Bird York ‘for forty years this house has held the fire of love they shared, but now the garden slowly dies’

Set fire to the third bar – snow patrol ‘there is no peace that i've found so far, the laughter penetrates my silence’

Recognition – Susie Suh ‘We are just shadows, crawling through this mud called our life’

Sooner or later – Breaking Benjamin ‘I'll learn to love to hate it, I am not integrated’

Land Down Under – Men at work ‘Can't you hear, can't you hear the thunder?’

Lonely hearts still beat the same – the research ‘Lonely hearts still beat the same, it not romantic its just automatic’

Cold – Evans Blue ‘We're far too comfortable this time.. I'm far too obvious this time’

the Wise onse says
"Recognize your limitations and abide by them"

Sorry but I do not remember

Today I read the Editor’s column it was quite interesting. I didn’t ask the editor if she wrote it while having me in mind ‘which is quite possible’. So it was telling a story a person imagining what today would have been if they had someone around. Would they do what everyone is doing and be glad for a smile? And how they thought that the person they miss is very brave.

And all I felt is nothing, I don’t dwell on the past anymore, for I no longer remember. It’s sad as I might have spent the most time with her, but I don’t remember her. I miss the concept of her, but I don’t know whom I miss.

I forgot maybe the person everyone holds very dear to his or her heart, but all I can do is attribute it to bad memory. I bet there have been great moments but I can’t recall any. Is it my fault? I remember events I remember some special days, but I never remember who was around with me. What does that say about me? hmm did I ever care about anybody to keep them in mind. I remember Germany because of the tapes; I remember birthdays because of pictures. Do I remember anything on my own? No not really. I like what my friends are doing now documenting everyday with a picture, I might really need that to keep track of my life as I’m due to forget. I think in some way this blog will act as reminder of some memories.

The wise one says
“Memories are our own version of life”

how will you die?

Have u ever thought of how you’d die? Maybe some heroic death or just a mundane one.

Ever thought of you death's scenario; I’ve always imagined that I’d fall down the stairs and break my neck, or I’d collapse and hit my head on something hard and get and get a fatal head injury. Gruesome?

Yet I’m aware that most die in unexpected ways, but I see these scenarios very possible.

I don’t have any suicidal tendencies or thoughts, I have to stress that fact this is neither a cry for help nor a death wish. It’s simply something to wonder about.

the Wise one says
"it's not how you die, but how u've lived"

Selfish vs. Sadness

Staring at strawberry tart my thoughts drift away, between the water bottle and the pizza I remember 2004. I let my thought formulate a memory of a person, and then suddenly I remembered that in truth 2004 was his last year with us. My thought caught my smiles and laughter and I don’t know what I really felt, despair, guilt, or shame.

We are selfish beings no matter how much others agonize in their own despair we are still smiling. We eat strawberry tarts and leave half a pizza untouched, when there are others who only want crumbs of bread. We buy expensive gifts in diamonds and gold, where those who have dug up those gems are stricken by poverty.

We might really feel sorrow, grief and even sadness, but it’s funny how one day you find your self just smiling again and laughing. Then if we truly have moved on and we are over our grief, how come sadness can overtake us in a second? Then all of a sudden the same doubtful dream state you’ve gone through is back, and beyond all realities you hope that this sadness isn’t true as it’s all but a bad dream.

How can we complain about our hectic lives, when some are gasping for a last breath to live? Then we complain for not having the right physique, when some only pray to be healthy again.

The wise one says
“Sadness never vacates a heart for Happiness to occupy”

Why Do You Smoke?

Every time I see a person smoking I get a compelling urge to say/do something. We all know that smoking causes lung cancer and heart disease..etc, and more bluntly on some packets there is a “SMOKING KILLS” sticker on it; yet people smoke. I hope that in this part of the world more bold signs would be around not those size 5 read types that gives you a might be or not warning.

Shouldn’t closed areas ban smoking, for the obvious reason that less ventilation there is so whatever clean air there is; should be cherished! Now the pipe and cigar thing are more of a “gentlemen club” thing not a walk in park or mall type of smokes I’d say.

Worst off why do you smoke around children! I can’t fathom why a father or a mother would smoke around their children. Shouldn’t smokers be away from kids, yet there are plenty smokers hanging around kids all the time, in parks in shopping malls and in arcades.

Smoking does not only kill the smokers, but all that are around them too. I wouldn’t mind smoking if all smokers went and lived on remote island and took all of their fumes with them.

So smokers quit, or die before you kill.

The Wise man says
“ there is no smoke without fire”

When Believing Counts for nothing

Today I’ve put some color on my face so I won’t feel pale. I wore my high heels to feel tall and grand. I pulled it off i was taller than everyone and I looked healthy. With my new façade I truly believed I’ll pull it off and have improved some how.

I walked into the temp clinic hoping that my hemoglobin is high now, I truly felt strong and healthy. Then me and Blondie went in thou she wasn’t really happy about the needles she was there, and that says plenty about her character. For the rest of my friends all I’ll say we Need more friends like Blondie incase I or they ever need blood.

I know that I knew that I won’t have 13.5 hemoglobin, simply cuz I’ve never seen that number in my life but I still help to my who believing system. Last time I checked was 2 years ago to qualify for surgery it was 10.4 and that was good enough, and today it was 10.2 dumb luck, crappy blood.

They say good intentions count, with no results they are pointless. I should work on getting my hemoglobin higher and then I’ll host my own blood drive.

I suppose I’ll have to find another way to do good. I’ve concluded that I’ll be an organ donor. If I couldn’t help advance science I’ll do my best to help in any way possible.

The wise man says
“the way to hell is paved with good intentions”

I believe

I believe in the good human nature and in a better tomorrow. We will always do good as long we are given the opportunity, so here we are presented with best opportunity ever, Blood Donation! I think it’s a great cause and doesn’t cost us very much.

I don’t understand why wouldn’t a healthy person donate. The lame excuse of being scared of needles is shameless, saying you are worried you’d faint or so if your healthy enough you wouldn’t. Every healthy person presented with the opportunity should donate.

I believe that I’m healthy and I’ll donate enshalla. This is one of the things on the “before 45 to do list”. If this happens I’ll be a happy fluttering hummingbird.

63>57
165<170

The Wise man says
“if you believe it then its your truth”

Too Old To Jump!

It’s a sad truth when you realize you are too old to jump or run, I feel 11 years old in my head I can run up the hill and bungee jump of a cliff. While jumping in jumping castle have put on bed rest for a whole day, and running around a 1 year old have almost set me back 2 oxygen tanks. I still do think I have an eleven-year-old spirit inside me ready to run and jump.

When have I gotten too old to jump? What will happen by 31 brittle bones?

I think we all should change our life styles, before any of us get too fat to walk or too old to stand straight. We need to balance our diet stop the one meal routine most have established or the no meal at all and plenty of snack all day long.

Exercise is good, I should start my original exercise plan which by I park in the furthest parking spot in the parking lot. I think we should walk when we can drive and stand when we can sit.

You know how you will ever lose any access weight you got? its by posting your weight after every post you put on your blog,
I bet you’ll stick to whatever diet or exercise plan you set up for yourself. That will be very interesting, oh well next post I’ll put up my weight and height and see how many posts it will get me to lose the weight I want to lose and how much taller I might get (if only I could). I suppose 21 is too old for any sudden growth spurt huh.

Oh ya anyone feels they need to lose any weight or maybe need any casual exercise tips, I’ll be your fat buddy, who got plenty to say about both as I my self will be trying them out.

So best of luck too all those who have an 11 year old child trapped inside them.

The wiseone says
“Listen to the child within, for he is you honest voice”

Secret Garden

I’ve always wanted a secret hide away, a place no one existed or at least I didn’t need to care about anyone. A place where it’s mystical like Avalon in the mist, a place peaceful and worriless. A place with not so much light just enough to see your way but not so bright.
Recently I’ve come across such a place, and tonight was a wonderful, it was raining and the air cool and fresh. It’s an amazing place where no one is there but me, and that is real and not just in my head. It is a garden but with no chirping birds, no playful kids and no people around. Probably because it’s always late at night, but it’s simply my place and it’s wonderful.
When I’m at the Garden all I hear is some music and my thoughts, I’m happy I wonderfully cheerful, and I couldn’t care less about my soaking clothes. Water puddles reflecting the little light out there and everything goes into a hazy blur, as seeing properly isn’t that important anymore, all that surrounds me feels surreal and I do not need to register any of it thus I am blissfully entranced.

The Wise one says
“Inhale every moment and savor it “

Hope

In happiness my heart rejoices, dancing away the sadness this night. For all that sadness we see, there is a lot to be happy about. So many times I wrote about things that upsets me, yet never about the happy moments. Today I’m gleeful as hope makes everything happy even if just in an idea.
Hope is all you need as it will make you happy in your present and delightful in your future. In a world consume by hatred and war, you start to doubt the chances of happiness of surviving. What rebuild a city after tanks and bombs turn it to ruin but hope. What keeps a cancer patient smiling other than hope.


Things that rekindled hope.
- I’ve just watched the motorcycle dairies and I’ve felt at ease. This is a film that speaks of the misfortunes of some and how one kind word or act change a lot. It’s just a very hopeful look at life.
- I went to Cirque du soliel, and the show was about the ordinary people you’d usually pass by it was very magical and amazing. It told an ordinary life story with no dialogue it’s truly an experience.
- The national football team have won, and that was a very joyful moments, hope in football rekindled.
It’s been a great week, hope it stay like that.

the wise man says
"there is no life without hope"

FORGET then FORGIVE

I suppose forgiving someone who truly has hurt you is quite hard. Here is my philosophy your must forget the incident so by it’s not bothering you thus no need for the forgiving part, some time in future u might be reminded by the incident but because you don’t recall it by yourself you’ll be inclined to forgive. This doesn’t require a big warm heart or a kind soul, yet it might not work for the vengeful hearts and those who hold a grudge dearly to their hearts. Holding a grudge and planning your vengeance isn’t just time consuming it also adds to your stress

Then again this might only work with me because I’m a very forgetful person. By the end of the semester everything piles up and there are more thing to remember so my forearm acted as a chalkboard.

The wise one says
“A forgetful mind makes a clear head”

On a Happy Note

Last year is a bygone, and we shouldn’t dwell on the past, let bygones be bygones.
Today is a new start, it’s a refreshing morning, and all out to celebrate the new start, and I with.
There is lost to do this year, Weddings, birthdays and graduations all reasons to merry and happy today. A new plan to set in motion, a very promising year this is, my resolutions, are to be chirpy as humming bird, radiant as the sun, and let the gloominess stay with the “Old Spirit of 20”. I’m going to be healthy! I’ll eat some sort of a vegetable, maybe tomatoes! “Sure;)“ I’ll get some exercise and stop being a coach potato, be more active. I’ll finish my h.w’s!!!! I’ll apply for universities!! I’ll graduate!! I’ll be a better friend. I’ll be less blunt and more diplomatic. “Isn’t Hypocrisy the new commodity.”
All in all, this is a good year!

The Wise Man says
“Tomorrow is new day”

A New Year

Another year has passed and little to look at and smile. All that passed has passed none leaf a lasting stain. Into history it all concludes, 20 a distant memory a number between now and tomorrow. I do smile for tomorrow to come for I know it’s a better day. I know all grows, blossoms and then withers and die. All live their life and no ones else time, all get their share and for that they shall be glad.
I do realize there are many hopes to hope, many dreams to dream, and many moments to embrace. I know many shall smile and wish me a great year, what is a year but a time from now and then.
Ageless like the times my sadness has been, but with a bright smile I shy the sun to an eclipse, for none to say I’ve darkened my life. For all I share more hides, to many and few I am who they think I am, and to you and me I’m as true as I come.
Tonight it all concludes, a new year a new dream a new hope shall all arise, and into tomorrow it shall set.

The wise one says
“Happy Birthday”

My Cause

I’ve been listening to the same song for 2 days now, and that is my interpretation of it
“ I’ve Seen- Outlandish, Sami Yusuf”

Once was motivation, but then time came and transformed it to an inspiration. Then again time came and ended it. Once it all had a greater cause now its all so trivial. Once science made all the sense I needed, and now faith is all I have.
I’m trying to find the reason, the truth behind it all. I know each have their cause, but mine evades me. The only cause I had is lost now. A new purpose is out there somewhere, but I wish you were here as I’m missing you so desperately.

The Wise one Says
"the truth is within"

Friend?

All I know is this, if I can live without a mother or a sister, why do I need a friend! i can be living in joy if I didn’t have to damn please the ones I love, I’d usually do what ever they’d want only for the mere liking, but not now not any more. I’m not bitter nor do I hate people, all I want is to live my life, and bystanders are quite enough. I never shared a secrets for the sad truth I’m brutally honest about myself and about everything. I don’t scheme and plan for people to like me, all I want is for people to respect me and don’t ditch me like a wet towel to dry in damp ditch.
What is a friend but another person in my life, today here, tomorrow not. I know this much if your family can disappear why do you hold much faith of friends! They are wonderful when they are there just as family, but when they are not it’s you and only you. No one cares if you drove all across the city with misty eyes or the gleeful smile, all that counts is to be self-sufficient and self-reliant. Why do we seek to share the joyful moments and why do we seek our parents acknowledgment or a man’s love? If at the end we all die, and no one remembers us.

The wise one says
“Memories if documented and not felt, are lost”

Old Age

This should be have been a great day, I’ve been waiting for this piece of paper for so long. I can no more care, it feels like I’m barely floating my way through the day, I lost my sense of time and space, I’m numb all over, stupid medicine I’m 21 in a couple of weeks and I feel as if I’m 64. I’ve come to realize my biological clock is way older than my self, and I’ve got an old soul to go with it.
When I turned 17 I had my mid life crisis, by this pace, if I reach 45 it would be a great achievement. As I mentioned in an earlier post “Plan 45” still stands, the grand party still happens and all is invited, but all need to keep me up to date with their current Address.
Anyhow, today I got the paper and as I always suspected I finished he course with distinction, I should have been very excited and happy, but all I was thinking about is to sleep, and how will I drive with out crashing the car with my buzzed out head. Al through the way I was about to pull aside and just sleep in the car, but with half closed eyes, and reciting every do3a and Quran verse I knew so God will help me reach home safely I got home, as always Allah is there for me you pray and he answers.
So when I got home I went straight to bed to sleep, and I was in balck space no dreams no nothing existed, until my idiot sister walked in and was on the phone, I woke up and realized I skipped to classes today, and I got plenty more to write.
Why can’t we just Sleep with no worries about waking up.

The wise one says
“Old age is sickness best friend”

Once in A Dark night

I’ll close my eyes and fall into deep sleep, no alarms would wake me up not any life engagements. A time when I won’t have to wake up for School or worry about a test. A time friends and family are irrelevant, all that matters is the empty space I float in. No dreams occupying my sleeping head no nightmares haunting my very existence.
It’s not dieing I desire, but something else. Where it doesn’t matter what that girl says about me nor what that guy thinks. A place I exist on my own with out missing anyone else, no Dead mother and no Dead brother. A place hatred and love do not exist, nothing exist but the empty black space and me.

The wise one Says
“a clear mind is a sane mind”

What is life but what we make of it.

There is no complexity in this world it has been black or white, but with us the grey area been found. Life is a mere interpretation, and with each the vision is different.
Pain tells us that we are alive, and thus we need to do more than just endure pain. We need to create love and peace to feel them.
Each must lives their own life, go through his own experiences and support their own causes. Then one could say my life, which ultimately is ended by death.

Life we chose to lead is one that shall be looked and praised. Yet still we live in a very narrow vision or with no vision at all. We never stop to really have a look at where we are heading. Beauty escapes on daily basis, as we never pause to look.
Yet we see all the gruesome detail we leave behind, War, Hatred and much more. For we need to look at times were consolidate and lean on each other for support, those are times worth looking at.


the Wise One says
"We live a Blind's man life, with Open eyes"

Deja Vu

I feeling the my life is constant deja vu, and to me it very unpleasant feeling, its like I already know what will happen next. I don’t like knowing what will happen next, it either life is becoming very predictable or I’m becoming a psychic, thou these days I can’t do anything properly, what of telling the future then. It’s not like I predict good stuff, its all bad or trivial. And then again I don’t chose what to know and all of the time I know stuff that I got no interest in or I’m better off not knowing. Knowledge is power and it’s not always good.

Come to think about it, how come most villains are very educated or scientists, I really do like superman, and yesterday all the gas-station workers where dressed in Superman shirts, so I asked if the DVD is out, turns out yes. So I got into the little gas-station grocery shop and got me a Superman DVD. I must say Tom Welling is better looking superman. Ok the thing is Lex Luthor is very educated! After hearing him and his dad quoting so many people, I started wanting to read the Art of War!!
I love superman but lex luthor!! Is like a genius and with money!

The Wise One says
“All Superheroes are Orphans”

Mess

To say my life is messy is an understatement. I just go back from a 10-day trip in which the journey had taken almost 3 days. It was very enlightening.
I need to sit and organize my mess, my clothes are all around, and my desk is the biggest mess ever, I sort put everything on hold fro the past 10 days, and didn’t worry about the next day, now the next day is here. I’ll start school tomorrow, and I gota make up for a whole week, its seems I’ll be running around this week too, can’t wait for spring break. This semester is taking so long to get through it. I can frankly say I never felt my life busy until this semester. Yet I’m loving it, some how it makes everything matter, it gives you a purpose.
I’m liking my mess, but I suppose I’ll need to fix up things tomorrow, enshalla

The Wise One says
“Live the Moment, And forget what comes before or after”

Pizza Hut Delivers faster!

Its 12:54, and last time I spoke to the police was 12:33 despite the fact that this all started at 12:00, they haven’t shown their pretty faces yet!

So here is the story: a guy bumps into me, and it takes both of us like 5 minutes to think about getting out of our cars and start inspecting the damages. Then another 5 to decide to call up the police. The dude mumble something I didn’t quite hear him so I ask, sorry what did u say, he said what road are we in. Huh that made me chuckle asking me about the roads name. Anyhow we got lucky and a van honks us turns out there is police officer in it. He calls the police for us and tell them about our where about, then he usher us to the side of the road. Then he tell us the roads name and if the police men if they don’t show up I should call them back.

So here I am sitting in my car with no credit in my phone praying that the bright dude behind me calls the police again. Then I thought I shud try calling them up 999 is usually free right? So I do and it rings, I’m happy and all but it keeps on ringing No one is picking up! I wonder did I get the number right, what sort of a lifeline is this! Then I close I call back few minutes later an someone picks up and he sounds hundred miles away. I start doubting that those people are supposed to help, anyhow he tells me we will send police patrol to you. 1 min later my phones rings and some other police personal asks me if I called 999!!!! What I was like shud i strangle him or laugh in his face. I tell him the deal and he says they will be there soon. Its 1:03, pizza hut delivers faster! And they got the worst home delivery service ever.


Uh I was so hoping to get home pack up my suitcase, and go shopping at the afternoon. Now it seems I’ll just head back to school!
Luckily I got my Macbook charged up, and I got ½ full tank.

And at 1:15 they arrive and at 1:30 I get back on my trip home.

The WiseOne says
"always packup heavy, as you never how boring a trip will be"

Why Say SORRY

I no more understand. Why would one says sorry and beg for forgiveness, then Do the exact same thing, and smile. Why would anyone cry when they feel no remorse? If you think your ways aren’t wrong, why then say you are sorry? If you kill and then feel guilt then never do it again. Do not serve your time and go on a killing spree later on.
No religion, no race, no ethnicity, nothing justifies what people are doing. Only a mental illness could, and then it’s too convenient to say they got that.
Why can’t we confess our crimes & be sorry, and then do our time and move on.

The WiseOne Says
“What is Darkness, when the soul is Black”

and Suddenly

everything changes, every thing changes, civilizations turn to ruins and Humanity becomes debatable, and all of a sudden truth becomes adjustable.

Nothing stays the same, dictators become victimized and villain are virtuous and of unwavering principals.

Logical loses all of it sense, as the righteous become extremist and the shameless are considered courageous.
Reality is a relative variable, to be dismissed or reconstructed as any cynical heart desires.

All that once was correct and right is questionable. As morals and ethics are constrains of self expression. Everything that once was clear is now blurry. Everything is up to being debated and all have a conflicting interpretation.

Once a great leader and persona, today in the subject of the public debate and what is his/her sexual preferences, and the more eccentric the more accepted the opinion was. Once criminals today are victims of society, and history is jsut another tale once told and which is now very much doubted.

Everything changes, nothing stays the same.

The Wise One Says
“History, is a tell tale of One”

Since 2003

2003 was the year where one journey ended and another was initiated. I’m not sure that my next journey ever was set to motion, and if it did I’m sure I’ve reached no destination, for I do not know where is it or what is my destination. I had a plan that never got played out, and thus 3 years later everything is fuzzy and unclear. I knew where I was headed I knew how to get there and what I’ll become after that. But that journey was halted from the start.

I just moved with the flow of the things, and became a drifter and as one I had no aim no point. 3 year after life shaped my perspective, I used to try and make life fit me but now I see we all just fit in our places, as we are part of life and the world doesn’t revolve around us.

I know this I did nothing significant in this world, as hunger, anger, hatred and poverty are to large of problems for me on my own to solve. Yet still I believe I can make a change, maybe not now but sometime soon in some place I’ll have an effect on people. I want to have a touch on every one I ever meet. So like in the series “Rosewell” the aliens when they touch someone to help/cure or something they leave a glowing hand. So at my funeral when all the people come they would have on their bodies a glowing hand metaphorically but literally would be awesome.

The Wise One says
“Searching for the meaning of life, is living in theory”

Plan 45

Plan 45 isn’t a big secret, but it is Big in its own right!
This plan is my LIFE plan, as in what needs to be done before I reach 45. Almost everyone who knows me have heard about it. Well this is my Blog so I can repeat as many times as my heart desires.
45 is the age I believe I’ll live to see, if I die before that.. well it wasn’t in the plan and plans do not always work out, but they can frame the picture properly.

If I reached my 45th birthday, I’ll have a BIG party!, and everyone I’ve met through my life is invited.
So the parts of this plan is:
- have a friend/contact from each country in the world.
- visit all the contents, and have at least 45 visited countries.
- Adopt a child.
- work for the United Nations.
- get a masters degree.
- Go to Makka for Hajj.
- have a statue of ME.
- get my name published in the History books, “preferably grade 5 history text book”
- write a book “fiction preferably”

its not a before I Die list, it is my 45 Plan.

The Wise One says
“ Always set a Plan, then follow the moment”

Trust.

What does it matter, if you have someone you could trust and call a best friends, or if you had no one at all you could trust. For one thing I’m sure off, is that there is no one you can completely trust. Not a sister, nor a friend. They all repeat what you say, parrots are at least more honest about it.
Trusting others is pointless you only set up your self for disappointments. Why do we need some one to share our secrets with, secrets are meant to stay that way.
We all need a friend to talk to, a sister/brother to fight with and we all need some one to love, still we can’t trust any, humans are built up not to be flawless but to be learners.
They tell you need to trust someone, I say just have faith in people, and don’t trust them. They all fail you in one way or another.
Everyone has a secret, yet I who do not want to know them, always find secrets unfolding. i try so hard to forget them, as they destroy faith.

My only wish is people keep their secrets hidden, as faith is vital for our existence .

the Wise One says
“Trust no one, to stay surprised”

Roles

Are we born in our Role? Or do we grow to fit a certain role, and out grow another. Are we committed to those roles or do we change them ever so frequently as we change our costumes from one play to another. Then what is constant if our roles are just changeable variables. Identity, Character and personality are all formed by the roles we play, if that’s in a constant change then what makes us “us”.
Do we chose the roles we play, or are they reinforced on us by society, family, friends and life.

I’m an introvert but everyone thinks I’m an extrovert, is this a façade I’ve put on unconsciously, or am i a poor judge of my own character. Does this means I’m hypocrite, for I believe one thing and act another way.
Are some roles easier to play than others, for instance I have the role a dumb clumsy girl in the family, I never get the society talk and interest in other society member affairs and I never know the people worth knowing. Then I’m the smart bright girl at school, I understand every new concept quiet easily and quickly, I ask all of the smart question, and discuss all of the important things, I know the people worth knowing in this field. Doesn’t this make our roles very contradicting, isn’t it either smart or dumb.

We are very contradicting creatures, we eat meat and raise goats as pets . We eat chicken and we got canaries as pets.

The Wise One says
“Embrace deformations, as reformation can be ugly”

Sound from Hell

Why doesn’t good luck stay for long, for some reason or another good luck always seems to be a trickful thing. For a while it treats you well, you get good grades, you get to eat all that your heart desire, you get to wake up knowing its going to be a good day. AND you buy you first Mac laptop! Some how luck seems to run out as money runs out after buying the Mac. I was very happy and joyful, until that moment, when you are happily chatting about you delightful day and everything stops for a second time freeze and mouths drop! And your mac has flipped of the table and on to the floor. Paralyzed by the sudden change of luck! You wait for some one to say pick it up!! I do and I turn it on, and it starts doing this funny noise (no there is nothing funny about it, its sounds like cutting bones!) so here you are hoping nothing bad happens! And you say I still believe in my luck and good fortune, so I go home & everything works fine, but still there is the sound from hell haunting you, I so do hope I’d wake up tomorrow and the sounds would leave me alone me and my mac, and tomorrow will be another happy day.

The WiseOne says
"Luck has nothing to do with life"

HiStory

The present is a repetition of the past and the future is a repetition of the present; ultimately its all a repetition of History. And that’s why we study history. After sleeping through 60% of the classes and leaving the class 30% of the time, and getting 61% each term I realized its use. I knew I wasn’t stupid when it came to studying, because one semester I realized I should try and study otherwise i’m very close to failing the course, so I did my best not to fall asleep while reading the material and I got 95/100 on the test. I passed the course and never again took American History again. I can see now the point of teaching it, but surely I’ll never study it again. So this flash back to grade 10, is due to listening to the song Try not to cry- for Sami Yusuf and Outlandish.

the WiseOne says
"Make your own Mistakes, and do not repeat anyones Glory"

My TV Review

About Ramadan TV, the series have stepped away from Big Dramas and deadly diseases. They moved to cartoons and comedies and gangsters, a big movie for the Arabic TV. Mostly they are pointless with week plots, but non the less refreshing.

Cartoons, Tom and jerry have been a while out on DVDs, still didnt find the spare cash to buy it. On Ramdan they got few new cartoons out, Freej; in artistic appeal it is great, but no solid story. Sha'abeyat Katroon, is very funny, and jsut long enough 3-5 mins.

As for My Usual TV series, Veronica Mars is in it second season, I really like this series its some how the 2000’s Nancy Drew. It very interesting, can’t wait for next Wednesday. Shocking that’s about the only show I watch right now, as every thing else just had season finale, and this cable network wont get the new seasons on straight away. Desperate housewives, are really dragging the murderous aspect of the characters. I seriously doubt that many murders and criminals live on one street, they should start the criminal suburban club. Grey’s Anatomy, started fine now, but its not as strong as the ending, I guess its just the way it is hopefully before the 5th episode things will get better.

Movies, so I don’t really go to cinemas much now, but I Really, Really want to see Take the lead, hope it stays on for another 3 weeks. I got couple of DVD I want to buy. I wanted to order 4 brother on TV but huh its out already, so I hope I wont be late on hustle and flow too. I need to buy Arrested Development season 2. I should stop lending my DVDs, so far they haven’t returned Tin Tin, CSI-NYC and arrested development.

“Ouran High School Host Club” anime, is the sort of thin you watch any time, it always makes me laugh even if I was crying. It’s hilarious, a girl dressing like a guy, and a protective club president that thinks he is her father, and then there it the gay-or not- twin brothers, and this childlike senior, its very funny. You really should see it!

The WiseOne says
“TV is the best invention after sliced bread”

Trust the Fingers

So when you don’t know what to do, and can not rely on your brain or heart, then trust the fingers. The fingers method works best, when your drowsy and u don’t have your bearings, or drunk, or high. Simply when your mind is out of it and you cant rely follow ur heart; The Fingers come in place. Like this morning I used the fingers to know whether to wake up and shower or to sleep some more, I showered and I wasn’t late this morning. Then again choosing which parking lot to park in, the Fingers came in Handy. So I put my faith in my fingers.

I wear my seat belt when I drive, and I buckle up my bag and books too, yet whoever sits in the passenger seats do not wear them!! Strange! Anyhow I suggest they wear it and if u don’t the waver their parent’s rights to sue me if we end up in an accident.

To day on the Radio I heard the way to break your fast is by eating dates and laban then praying, then come and eat up and eat in periods.

The Wise Man says
“ we spend all of our time collecting money, and when we have enough we try to buy time”

Revelations

I had my 2nd accident, the bumper need a paint job, the car I hit also needs a paint job, it was my mistake as usually , I didn’t really look when I turned around, luckily everyone was fine the police took their sweet time until they got there, and I was late for class. I don’t really want to take my car to the shop as they will take ages, and schedule cant handle wasted time. One thing for sure I’ll never hear the end of it anytime soon.

I want a Mac notebook, as IBM is proven to be very crappy. Uh Mac’s look nice, my cousin had new last week and since then I want one too. Today I handed in all of my due papers, and now I feel so free I don’t even know what to do.

This is the 3rd day of Ramadan, I’m hungry but I’m glad, its funny how you can still feel good on an empty stomach. I love iftar time I get to have a family meal, in my normal life we ever so rarely sit as a family for a meal. Family time is fun, best of all when all watch TV, or talk about life and stuff. Sadly we always have to get back home as we got loads of home works to do, hopefully I wont have to rush out.

the WiseOne says
"life is a banana, its bright and delightful"

How to Kill a Cow , Click

I’ve always had the wackiest ideas in the room, no matter how outrages they might be I’ll still share them, it not that I’m silly, but those ideas make the day funnier. I think u always should voice your thought, as with out voicing them out they are just prisoners of your brain cells.

Cells, my contact lenses fell out of my eye so I walked of the class and said to my teacher my cell fell out! I was like hmmm what does cell has to do with lenses. Then I realized I never like wearing lenses I used to refuse it completely until the movie Gattaca, the shot when Ethan hawk squeezes his eyes and the contact lenses fall off and everything goes blurry to him, at the moment I warmed to idea of contact lenses. But actually wearing them took me more years.
Anyhow the connection is in Gattaca it was very Sci-fi and there was the whole DNA thing, so in my mind lenses had a direct link to cells!!

Then again my mind work in a very peculiar manner, so hope one day I’ll be rich enough to afford to be eccentric. My way of doing things in no way or manner resemble anyone else but me.

The WiseOne Says
“Be an original thought, as ideas are plenty common”

Unreliable sources

Weather is the best in being unreliable at all, on Day its bright and sunny with blue skies, the next day it is a Sand Storm. Today I had my coffee in one hand and opened the door by the other, to find the thick fog waiting for me, and engulfing everything in the backyard. If my car was anything but orange I wouldn’t have driven it in this weather.

So I get in the car and turn it on, its sort of damp so I don’t turn the AC on. I start looking for the car booklet to try to figure out how to turn on the fog lights! last week I found out how to keep playing-back one track from this booklet its VERY useful, luckily my smartness stopped me from throwing it out. So I found the digram and the arrows directing it. I turn the fog light on, not yet completely sure I ask my sis before she sits in to see if they are on, now that I’m sure its all working fine, and I know everyone will be able to see me now. I drive out I barely can see the car that is 3 feet in front of me and everything else is White. For some reason when we reached the long road to school I kept thinking that 3 Witches will come out the fog and linger in front of my car, and my car will be suspended by air and everything will go still around us, it was as is I was driving through the Mist of Avalon. Uh I was Demona in that sec. *One of my ideal characters*
Anyhow now I can say I drove through dust & fog, waiting to drive under the rain.
Can I rely on the weather to rain?

the WiseOne Says
“The only thing u can rely on, is that the Seasons will change”

All of the Ugly Places

Summer is over and we just got through the first week of our academic year, for the first time I got to know the other side of my city the Desert-still in construction- side ( where i currently study at). I always had this pretty perception of my city, busy roads with fancy cars, tall glass buildings green views and clean streets. One windy day in the other side of the city and my perceptions changed what I considered to be my big city has become a small student village, with dust and sand to be the dominant part over people.
I can not find the prettiness in this place. Yet my pal visited another ugly part of the city and loved it! I thought it is just plain ugly, and now where I go every day is pretty ugly too, I wish my friend is here to see this ugly place too, I bet she’d love it. The plain ugly place is in the picture above is what she saw and loved. Although she was here at new year so much have changed and I want to show it to her, I can’t wait until I go visit her home in Japan and she shows me all around, I want to see all of the ugly places that she'd might consider fascinating. she has a very different definition of beauty.
what is ugly to me is pretty to others as tehy say beauty is teh in the eyes of the beholder

the WiseOne says
" to be Happy with Life, you will have to Like all the Ugliness"

Dirty New Pages

Its usually said to lets start a new white page or a Clean Slate, This year its a new page/Slate for sure, but it is really a dirty Dusty page/slate !Today we Moved to the New Gigantic campus, its new alright but it sure doesn’t have the smell of a new thing. Like when u buy a new car you sure shall smell the leather, and when u move in a new house the smell of paint still lingers. New thing have this feel of being fresh. But no not this Campus it was mud Hole, our clothes turned Grey and To top it the AC wasn’t working in the part where I spent most of the day, so basically we were dirty and sweaty, that sure isn’t a proper way to start the year off.
Nonetheless I had my look around, and familiarized my self with the place. I saw most of the people I already new, met few new people. All in all it was an alright day. We dis nothing that resembled studying after all our professor don’t have their offices yet and their things are all boxed up. So this coming month will kinda of go slow, not exciting at all.

The commute isn’t very dreadful, We found a kinda shorter way than the one directed on the maps, and there isn’t much traffic there. Its a long way though half off my car fuel have 1/2 dried up in just a day! I used to have my tank to be half empty after a week. This is something I need to adjust my weekly allowance for, I suppose I’ll just ask for separate fuel allowance, lets see how that works with my Beloved Father.

the WiseOne says
“To shine in the world, you need to illuminate your soul first”

Traffic

Every big city, has the traffic curse, no matter how wide the lanes are there will be a traffic jam. Never mind the highways that are five lanes wide and has a decent speed limit of 120KpH, you will get stuck in traffic. I do understand the traffic we get in my city, you get stuck on U turn because the cars are rushing doing the road. I’m used to it, and somehow it defines the city. Plus you do move just an inch ever minute and half.

In a neighboring city, roads are of 2 lanes and most of the time there is construction going on, so it not only a tight drive but a bumpy one too. A thing I totally despise about that city is every few miles there is a roundabout, I hate them! First they are huge they are big enough to build a villa on top of them. Then the lanes are never lined up properly. Then there is the ugly factor, I never seen an uglier road!

I used to have a very short commute to university, it took 1 min to get out of the garage and into the parking lot of the campus. I was one of few blessed people in that campus, I never had to deal with traffic on the main roads early in the morning. Sadly as we all know good fortune do not last long thou I liked to think I’ve been always blessed, as even when I was at high school it was only a 5 min drive. Now the commute have drastically changed, I have to drive in an extremely busy high way on the outskirts of the city, which well take more than ½ hr to reach the new remote campus, it basically in the middle of the desert, the closest living thing is a 10 min drive away at least. I can no more return home to sleep off my 3 hrs break, nor can we go to the fast food drive thru to grab lunch.

Now wouldn’t it be pretty if the roads look just as the road in the picture in day time too, this is a picture of the street in front of our place at 2:00 am. Pretty huh.

The WiseOne say
“Never count your blessings, as you’ll eventually reach a sum”

My Car Wash story

Recently I was under a hazy lazy spell, a whole week worth of day time sleeping and night time relaxing and TV watching. So being the wise person I am , I decide to start the day early and do something useful.
I headed for university at 9:30 and it turns out that I was early, so I felt good about that; I decided to reward myself I bought myself a café latte which woke up every cell in my body. So at 10 o’clock I was assigned a job for the next term helping out the IT department. So far so fab.
I decide to take it a step further so I went to supermarket, and bought car wash supplies, a duster, window wiper, sponge and some cloth to dry out the car. When I reached home, the front gate was closed so I went to the back entrance. I got out of the car unlocked the front gate, drove out the house and around it to get to the front gate.
To my delight there was an airlines car parked by the front gate, so here I thought they’ve dropped the maid, which meant she’ll help out in washing my car or do it all. Getting out of the car, the airline driver asks me if there ia a person at this house who has a flight to catch.In misery I answer no u got the wrong house.
I open the gates wide, thinking we should get the gate to open electronically like the back gate, so I drive in the house, my uncle teases us about it and calls it the white house, the pavement is full off dust and the grass turned yellow, and being my all heroic self I got out of the car and started pilling out my supplies to only discover that I didn’t buy any soap. Being the smart person I am I got to the laundry room and got some fabric detergent.
Now I had to find the water hose, I recognize 5 water taps, all linked to different hoses, so thinking to my self I say this should be easy I’ll chose the longest one, which was a yellow hose; only I can not turn on the tap its tight and connected to a generator so I leave it alone and look at the other four. Two were those black strong plastic that had holes in it and it drips water all around the garden, so that wont work. I look at my last 2 resources the 2 green hoses, those too were connected to a water spout; the one that has three openings and like splash the water all around the green. So I tell my self I will deal.
I get my lime green bucket and turn the hose thing on its head down in the bucket then i turn on the water. Water starts to splash all out of the bucket and over me, my shirt is soaking wet my jeans turned heavy and my sun glasses got wet like a swimmer goggles. Eventually I almost half filled the bucket up. I carried the bucket and I wondered how to best use it, here I am thinking this is the simplest thing ever. Before I splatter the water I decide to dust the car off so when the water pours down it doesn’t turn the dust to mud. But the more I dusted the dirtier it got, so I decide its time for the water.
splashing the water on the car turns out to not be enough. I figures that that much water is only enough for a door and half. Now orange metal is glittering under the sun with fresh water dripping of it, so i smile and start taking the trip to the water tap all over again, I did that 7 times to wet the whole car and in the process I myself got completely soaked. I stood back to admire my splashy work and to my dismay I notice the streaks of dirt covering the car! At least before washing it was dust and barely visible; now its very obvious how dirty it is. Not to panic I decide some soap and sponge would do the trick, but only to find that soapy water is worst than clear water! The car is covered in dried soap now!
Its noon and I’m standing under Dubai’s sun in mid august while the temperature is above 40 Celsius, how smart am I. Before I start getting a heat stroke I leave it and decide to take it to the car wash later in the day!

the WiseOne says
“to be wise, is to recognize ones own faults”

Standing By

What are we doing in this life other than stand by and lie to ourselves. Through my 20 years on this earth I’ve been told I had great potentials, when has having potentials is good enough, we need kinetic energy to fill our lives with energy. We are always told each got their own purpose in life, what is good our purposes if they do not serve humanity, and only serve an individual. Are wee moving in any direction at all or are we swept by the flow of life, do we write our destinies by the choice we make, or is destiny already written and our lives are set and planned our and we are merely setting it in motion, do we in fact direct it or even stir our life.
We are here alive, we move with a flow not set by me nor by you, we chose yet it turns out all to be the same, we stand by when all falls, we stand by when all is glory, we stand by alone or in groups, whatever the manner is wherever we are we are standing by.
Can we in fact take a stand? Can we make our life? Can we change what’s written?
Would we ever stop the lie in which we are greater than we are, we have done are doing great things. In which every one is standing by watching us.
Would the lie ever cease?

The Wise one Says
”We Die Before we are Born”

Summer Trips

Summer vacation Began and everyone ran, Dubai is to hot in summer thus most of us leave and try to find cooler places, or at least that is the case of my people, one friend went to Prague, and the other left to Italy just hours ago on a school trip, and my other friend is leaving soon to London to work in cancer research centre, and I’m packing up and leaving in less the 24 hrs I’m hoping I’d get lucky and the weather in Scotland will be nothing hot, I’d be happy if it rained everyday :D

Today I helped my friend to pack up for her trip so we stayed up all night as she has to get ready before dawn and leave by it, so there was no point of sleeping and then waking up. So now here I am haven’t yet slept, its 7 30 in the morning already, and I must head out in less than 3 hrs then get home and finish packing. I hope I could sleep the rest of the day off!.

Traveling is fun! Its only the packing the hurts, funny how my bag always seem to fill up. I hope it closes! I hoping for cold weather.

The WiseOne says
‘the trips is the journey and not the destination”

Morality

We think highly of those stand by their principles and those who have a strong values system, and over all we believe morals makes us civilized.

Yet rarely there are any who fits this image, we think someone is for only we know them more we know better than to think them to be like what we first thought.

Why do always aspire for the unattainable, or why do our role models have to be flawless, we only set ourselves to be disappointed. We must have a healthier perspective of others. Whatever seems to be good to be true then most probably it isn’t true.

No one is greater than you unless you think they are, no one is better than you unless you believe that they are. You can stay disappointed by people or you can chose to see the little things that makes us all unique, and for that think they are good.

The WiseOne says
“To be great you’ll need to excel in being a human first”

Parallel universe

We enjoy fantasizing about another life, one which we had all we wanted one where we chose in which family we are born in, we dream of being an only child or having a twin brother. It simply dreams and all in our head.

What if someone don’t only fantasize about another world, but actually speaks of it as if it exists, not as if they’ve gone mad and started mixing reality with fantasy. But they lie about their life to people to make it better! Silly you might think, but there are such people.

I know this person, and what I hear she tells others about her self is so bizarre, why would u say you got no sisters, when you got 3 ! at first I’d assume people are talking about someone else, but eventually it turns out its the same person, and that’s only the start of it.

I start to think she lives in 2 worlds, one in which all she thinks is true, is it possible. is there a parallel universe where she exists in and all of this is true?

The WiseOne say
“Don’t try to fly, when you got no wings to spread”

Losing Faith

I’m proud of my religion, and I believe I have a strong faith and I’m committed to it. Yet I refuse to believe only my people will be in heaven and all rest are doomed. I believe in my religion and so do others, are we doomed by our beliefs. Faith is our haven in this life, it what makes things better we nothing makes sense.

If we don’t belong to the same faith, does it mean I can’t love you or at least like you. Why are we defined by our religions, and what of those who have no religion, are they all doomed. How come We believe who isn’t like us is going to be in hell. Why can’t we simply hold to our faith with out insulting other faiths. Why it has to be one religion or another, I believe my religion is the right one, but I can’t force my belief on others, why can’t we simply co-exist.

When I say I respect other Religions, and that I don’t challenge them, I'm told that I’m not proud of my Religion. When i say we need to co-exist and let each religion alone, I’m said to be losing faith. Its always said we need to express ourselves and our religion. How is it right to express your self and step on someone else. They say we need to spread our faith the righteous religion why are we so sure that ours is the right one. I’m not doubting my religion in any way. Yet if I say this out loud I’d be said to be losing faith. Why are we the right ones. How come everyone seem to be just doing just well if not better than us if they are in the wrong.

The WiseOne says
“Faith is never lost, as it is never gained, it simply exists with in you”

Truly inspirational

There those who shine in life, not because of their intellect or magnificence, but rather shine in their modesty. They do are the ones who do great things and by that they succeed in this life. They shine through the gratitude of others and with the acknowledgment they are overwhelmed. Those people who truly deserve to be awarded those people who inspire me to be a better person.

Today those people were acknowledged, they were rewarded and thanked. And everyone of them wasn’t shining in glory on the stage but rather with modesty, first they thanked others and never in their speech mentioned them selves as driving force, they remained thankful to all.

When u meet someone, and that someone makes you want more and be better as person, that person should be valued highly.

My teacher of SBS, have inspired me to not to stereotype anyone and to accept everyone as they are and for what they stand for, and love them for that.
I believe you must see what person is truly is and only then you can see their potentials.

This Man has been the photographer of the royalties in this land, and when he took my picture all I thought was that I’ll grow to be like these royalties. He made me dream a bigger dream.

Then there were my friends they had worked so hard and never truly complain, today they were awarded and they truly deserved it, and still all they did was say thank you.

Those people inspired today

The WiseOne says
“inspiration, is a hope of magnificence”

Face just don't Stare

You don’t put you hand on fire because you know it will burn you, you don’t eat what you know tastes bad, and that’s the way it ought to be. But here comes the people who do everything they know they don’t really enjoy, its one thing to face your demons and another to keep starting at them!, that way you are just provoking them to hurt you. I mean fear is usually a safety reflex, u get scared of what could hurt you and discomfort you.

So I got this friend who just adores horror movies, I for one cant see the point in sitting in a dark theatre half empty, with scary music a disfigured faced, it scares me and being scared isn’t really an enjoyable feeling. So my friends keeps on dragging me into such films. I’m the kind of person who focuses on the film, an hate hearing anything else, this friends screams, jumps, pull my clothes and the silliest part she would actually say run hide to the characters! And she keeps on saying I’m sacred, if your scared why do u come here in the first place, how do u enjoy a movie when ur yelling through it.

The WiseOne says
“People are too wise for my taste, I prefer animals”

Killer Sensation

A killer sensation is when u can’t suppress what u feel and the only way you got express it is by violence. Its when u don’t get what u want and nothing works your way frustration is all you can feel. I’d gladly break something or hit anything by the times, but when I’m frustrated I numb it by digging my nails in my palm, some how it absorbs some of the frustration. Bt its not a total cure, all I want to do is feel better and solve it.

These days I keep on losing my things, one thing I’m sure of where I have left them, but some how is fooling with me, I just want to find my stuff!!!!!!!!!!!

The wise thing and the mature thing is not to get angry and try to solve it in rational way, right now all I can do is hit, kick & cut my pillows! I want to find my things now!

The WiseOne says
“There is always was a nobler act, if only I figure what is noble”

Strange

Its strange how it always seems we don’t find what we want the most, and we never get what we need. Its even stranger that u always have what you do not want or at leas do not crave for.

For instance I’m looking for one book in particular, I’ve found books I haven’t seen for years, but the one I want is no where to be found. my stuff always seem to disappear.

Losing things, is very common in this life, and looking for them shapes our journey in life, and we find them somehow they don’t seem that much important anymore. that is why we lose a lot, for looking and searching is what define out lives and what makes our existence more relevant.

The WiseOne Says

“rewards without quests are tasteless”

Driving a Car

1259

at 1259 time stopped, 1259 BUMP!!, at 1259 i crashed , at 1259 kilometers new became old, and old became broken.

Poor little Organeeta Garambeta, got a hard hit. OG isn't a month yet, but going back to her manufacture.

I looked the other way, and took my foot of the breaks & tata, straight into an old mans' trunk. OG didn't get damaged seriously; the bumper will need to be replaced. I suppose all is well as the bumper needs a little of paint too.

now I’m back to driving DT, the crappiest car you ever could set an eye on, u can hear DT 200 miles away. none of the mirrors are functional, no AC!!!, no Stereo, the door hands can fall off any minute now, i always feel that if i drove it far it will just fall apart, and i'll be at a street in a seat holding the steering wheel while each part fall off.

DT is as old as I am , 20 freaking years old, machines aren't supposed to out live their users. and to top it all DT is red, so u can never miss it.

DT stands for Death Trap

The Wise Man says:
“you never can avoid destiny, as it’s written , and there is no eraser”

Changeable Variables

Nothing is constant or forever in life, even life it self changes or simply ends. We all do not like change much as it disrupts out routine, yet it happens and we need to adapt. We should not expect things to run smoothly nor should we foretell change, we simply need to run along with it.

For instant, in my country weekend was Thursday and Friday, but now they are making the weekend Friday and Saturday, imagine saying can’t wait for Thursday!! I mean will movie release dates will be effected to. As long as the weekend is two days I’m fine with it, well this change we know about before it even happens.

But how about things that just simply happens, and they do not just change they simply just end!.

I think everything is a changeable variable, even our own selves we change with time, what once was big is now average, what once was ugly now is beautiful.

The WiseOne says

“Never try to fit in, as it needs to adjust to your size”

Conformity

We live in a world that we count the most, we come first, our need or wants are before all. We seek to be different and standout n every crowd. Yet all we aspire to is very smilar, we want to be the richest the most famous, we want successful careers, a family of our own.

We simply want to be the best at all. Yet all of this is similar how dreams and aspirations is very much guided by what the world defines as the best, and the conforms us.

We all have the Big white houses, with big blue windows, we all got the green lawns, with big palm trees, and high walls. We all got 2-3 cars parked in garage, we all got the maid, the gardener & the driver. We all go to private school and have summer vacation in Europe and winter breaks in snowy mountains. Our lives are very common in style, we try to avoid commonality yet we are bound by it.

The Wise Women says
“ We will talk about me, me and me, and when we are over, we will talk about me”

Longer, farther & hotter

Things tends to drag on longer than you anticipate, so is this academic year, we still haven’t reached exams week, not the date!!, we still have classes and projects and term papers. I’m wild guessing that we got the longest semester ever, it’s freaking 20 weeks long. And then when we tend to start before everyone else, we start in August!!
To top things up, next year they are moving the university to remote location, and by that I mean the new place is some where far on a high way, and what we got as neighbors are some camels and loads of sand.
It’s a miserable thing, now I wake up before class by 10 minutes I get dressed in 5 & 1 min drive 2 walking, and I’m in class on time. Now the drive it self would take me 20-30 minutes! I hope my schedule starts late in the day next year, as I don’t know how would I manage an 8 o’clock class. If I could summarize this course I’d write a book, so far I’ve written to many pages to count on very different topic, I wonder how its is to be a master student let alone a PHD student.
Considering the climate over here summer break should even start earlier, and car should have the AC built in the roof and not the dash board, when I get in the car my head/face is boiling off and not my hands.

News: The Sun Has Relocated,
old address: Space, please forward mail to new address: Earth, UAE – Dubai

The WiseOne says
“Life is short, so don’t stress you self with deadline”

Like all, love some & hate few

I think we first like everyone, and then we decide to hate or love them considering them as a person. It always have been exciting to meet new people, I’m usually open to new friendships and bonds. I can be very social at times, I make friends easily and I’m pretty open to differences as that what makes this world diverse and interesting.
Yet recently I’ve become very wary of others, and the more I learn I think I’m more prejudice towards others. I do make hasty judgments on first impressions, but I soon retract them.

Anyhow this summer my trip will be with people I never knew before the only link I got with them is we go to the same school, yet I never have met them at school I just recently discovered they existed. The thing is I just met the group and so far none are anything like the people I click with, so this trip might be challenging. I’m not making any assumptions yet, I’ll try to know them before I decide whether they are my type of people or not, I hope it all runs smoothly, and i have pleasant trip this summer.

The WiseOne says
“Believe in all, and trust none”

Empty Words

Are those uttered frequently, meant to ease pain but all they do is float in the vacuum of life. They say time will ease your loss, but it never does, the pain is stays fresh no matter how much time have passes. You never over come your loss nor move on, you just get accustomed to it. You fall and hurt your self and they say you’ll grow up and forget, not really there will be a scar to remind you of your fall.
Saying I miss you is any empty word to me, if you say something their should be an action to follow it, or its just another word floating around.

The WiseOne Says:
“Never say what you mean”

All is for You

"When you want something, all the universe conspires in helping you to achieve it"~AlChemist

today i finished this novel/story called "The Horse Whisperer" by Nicholas Evans thou liked "Smoke Jumper" more .. anyways i finished and although the end was nothing i expected it was nice, and then through the day watching tv i figured out there is a Movie on the novel and its showing tonight, here i thought huh is this a mere chance or did the universe conspire to make this happen i mean if it was day earlier it would have ruined the book for me ..

such things happen frequently to me, sometimes i want a certain thing and just think of it for a second then later in the day i get it.. once i wanted a apple toffe from Germany and at night someone was back from germany and had got me the apples.. that was the best gift ever!.. it was the only gift i desired and got it for no occassion at all ..

the WiseOne says:
"Its not how many Heads you step on, but where does these heads head"

To Live

To live on & still se the world in bright colors, is to turn a blind eye to its ugliness to avoid all it conflicts, this only will maintain you brightness, this means you’ll never live life at it fullest, to do so u’d have to take a deeper look into it , this means to live it conflicts and to endure all it pains, your world colors might get darker yet never colorless.

Same goes with people, you always what to have a role model and when u get to know ur more u figure out there isn’t anything special about that person. When u look at things u figure out they are never as perfect as they seem.

It’s a choice either we look the other way & live with no complications or get involved and make life more complex.

The WiseOne says:
“life is but a choice”

On We Go

Standing up after falling is easy, it takes more effort to move on again. Its not how fast you stand up but how steady your moves are after that. Its easy to drift away yet hard to get back on the track, mostly in everything this is true.

It takes effort to be the first & hard work to stay the first but it takes nothing to fall back & be the last, so always have to try hard & harder that ought to be in the highest ranks.

We have the right to feel gone after failing in an exam our if our health is bad & more if we lost a dear one to death, but we shouldn’t stay in that state forever and never rush our grief give it time to sink in and let life take us on, maybe our wounds would never heal, but that doesn’t mean to stop living.

The WiseOne says:
“ never lose one’s self. As it take forever to recover”